Not all bandomen have your best interests in heart, girls. Sometimes, they’ll play you just so you sleep with them and BAM, they’re done with you or they want something else.
I met this bandoman from an indies band at a live. He was super sweet to me and chatted with me. I was really naive and I’d never had a lot of experience with romance or flirting or anything. I was also homesick and I just… missed being able to talk to someone.
I was stupid, because now that I’m older I realize that he was playing with me, but at the time… I didn’t know any better. How was I supposed to know, you know? I was a kid.
Either way, he kept asking me to go to his lives and I kept going (mostly because another band I really liked always played with him.) And, one day, he asked to see me after the live. We went drinking, and it was just really… nice. He didn’t try anything weird because I told him I wasn’t ‘ready’ for any of that.
We did that a few times and he invited me to go to one of his onemans. I even had my name on a list, and it was the first time something like that ever happened. I felt kind of… special? I don’t know.
I ended up giving him my virginity soon after and we had sex a few times after, and then he was done with me. He got what he wanted, and suddenly if I wanted to see him I needed to pay for things like dinner or drinks or he’d ignore my messages.
I was so upset I pretended like the entire thing didn’t happen, that I was still a virgin, that I’d never met him. I actually started skipping my favorite band’s lives or only going just for them and leaving right after just so I wouldn’t need to see him. I was only in Japan for a little while, so it ended up meaning I missed some of my favorite things.
That fucked me up worse than I even want to admit. I’ve never actually TOLD anyone about it before. Even my closest friends never actually knew the real way I lost my virginity. I came up with some story about it and I lied. I hate lying, but that isn’t exactly something you tell people when you meet them.
It’s been a long time and even now I just don’t trust people. I was stupid but he was an asshole.
They just call these human beings like this “men” — seriously. Wtf.